victim of violence a victim of today

don't think im weak because i did'nt fight back

i choose mine wisely

you know you were wrong for that

you hear all the time of how you shouldnt hit a lady

but i guess the emotions and liquor had you acting crazy

we fought at 1st with our words going back and forth

yelling "I hate you"

me saying "Go ahead and try it"

and stuff of that sort

then you pushed me against the wall

and you said i did it now

i shead only one tear

and kept my smile

i yelled go ahead and kill me if you think you can

all the while im thinking i wish you would just hold my hand

you threw me on the couch

i tried to get up quickly

but you grabbed my stomach and it wanst gently

then you held a knief to my neck

then you asked did i have any last words baby

the look in your eyes

and i asked you "are you going to kill me because i saw you inbetween that b*tches thighs"

i laughed and layed back

and said do what you do

i said "i hope that b*tch was worth it cause i would rather die than deal with you"

i looked at you then i closed my eyes

ni*gga kill me so i can die.

you pulled the knief away and said i don't want to kill you

you told me "you loved me"

andd that you made a mistake

i looked at you like you were crazy

and got up out the way

you yelled baby i love you

i said im not hearing that

i said tell that to that b*tch Tina and get the h*ll up out my house

you cried i don't love her

i said i dont care

you took a gun out and held it right there

you looked at me

i looked at you

you pointed the gun to me

then to you

i tried to move my lips but nothing came out

the trigger went off right there in my house

you left me July 11th

and there is where you lay

A Victim of Violence

A Victim of Today

stripped

lyfe said it best"think before you let it go"
but he forgot to mention
what if you didnt give it away
what if its taken
how can a man take something that was meant for good
and turn it the other way
i was 11 that day
when my uncle came home
said he had a suprise in store
but little did i know it wasnt a barbie doll
but more like a blow up male figure
dark hair
slim figure
he told me to lay down
and to close my eyes
told me i was going to be a big girl now
he unzipped his pants
and lifted my skirt
he said "if i take a deep breath it wouldnt even hurt"
but of course he lied
but i couldnt even let out a scream
all i could do was cryand cry
and cry
tear after tear rolled off my face
like a water fountain
from that day on...

i would never be the same

love??

i want to love you

but i can't

it's not healthy trying to love someone

who wont let you in

i beg,knock&plea

but you just ignore me

you say you love me

but how woould i know

love is an expression why not let it show

love is 2 bodies coming together as 1

so theres my body+ 1/2 of yours ....but that doesnt = the love sum

i can't do this anymore

half way loving youi want to love you all or none of you

i don't mean to sound harsh

but it hurts me can't you see

loving someone who doesnt let me in

i might as well be lonely

helpless romanticc

dreams into nightmares
nightmares into dreams
happily ever afters
into once upon a midnight dreary
shiny apples and 12 little men
can't evem compare to the
wicked witches that always try to win
step mothers & half sisters
prince charmings & romantic kisses
in all this what am i really trying to show.
well...
ℓovε can go either way
romantic bliss or lonelyness
whatever it is
whatever ℓovε might really be
ℓovε can go either way
it just depends on you and me
depends on what we really want it to be
theres a lot of things it depends on
but mostly it depends on me
see i can only control me
and you can only control you
&& together we make it work out for our good
and maybe at the end ouf our tale it will read
"and the lived happily ever after...the end"
but until that day.
lets make our everyday a happy ending
so even if midnight dreary might come along
we have our fairy tale dreams & wishes to keep us going on